~*2006 in 1hour 1minute...

I've really contradicted myself these last few days. I've just turned into a blog whore :p I started off saying I can't write much for jackcrap, but here I am, on nou yer's eve, alone at parents'place, blogging, while parents are away at some swanky do (nah, old folks gathering, I believe :D) and sibling with her significant other (well, he does take up a very significant amount of her time) are roaming in, god knows which crowd filled mall to "countdown" to 2006.

To be fair, there has been a few invites to hit the clubs tonight to do the ever cliché “countdown”, but then again, I go out too much during non festive periods that the novelty of “celebrating” new year’s in a club is not there for me anymore. If I do go out, it’s no different from any other weekends…so, I’ve decided to chill at home. At least I can say that I did something different. Hmm...I’ve decided, this would be how I spend my new year’s eve from this year on! No clubs.

I am tired. Went out last night, to this dodgy bar that we’ve always frequented. We kinda like hanging out there because it’s like a place where we can just go crazy and no one bats an eyelash or two. By crazy, I mean the freestyle aerobics, gyrates and head bangs :D. You see, we’re in Asia...doing the Missy/Shakira style booty shakin are not an “in” thing here (well, maybe not even anywhere else too…but that’s not my point here…), so we had been quite happy there, ignoring the dinginess of the establishment (read: hookers and hookees (??)) until last night. My alcohol tolerance is pathetically low, and I was really plastered last night and to cut to the chase (if there’s even any) I have decided to NOT go there anymore. Not even for the cute (read: HOT) band guy, not for anything.

I like what Guppy said in his blog, something about reinventing himself, doing things differently, or different things this year, changing who and how he is. I am bloody inspired to do the same. God knows I need a whole lifestyle revamp. The very least I can start with is to make time to read more. I love reading, but too distracted by the idiot box…nah, that’s not my way of addressing my beloved telly. But, I have been too distracted. I have to party less.

I must exercise! I must get thin. I am 20 freakin 8 and single. I like to think that I am wee bit picky. My friends would agree. I have to learn to sing more Chinese songs. Can’t read Chinese, but roommate is willing to teach. Chinese songs are so much easier to sing than English ones in karaoke. Sounds hella good too, honest! What else is there to resolute? Hmm…ahh, can’t think of anything else. All in all, 2006 will be a year for changes and travels. And I truly pray that it’ll be a less difficult year than 2005. Yea, I know, fat chance for that, but it IS New Year’s eve… a girl is allowed to have a little hope, doesn’t she? No? Shoot me.

Cheers…to whomever. Happy New Year to all you blessed souls! You’ve just made it through 2005.

~* last work day of the year...

A thought came to my head whilst driving to work this morning. Looked at roommate and went, gosh...this will be the last time the roads are almost empty, and our 15 minutes drive to work will end soon. The kids will be back in school next week and their parents will once again cram up the roads to drive their sorry little arses to school every morning. Dang.

Still got the sleeping bug today. Slept at about 7pm yersterday. Too damn lethargic, and don't even know why but still feeling the lethargy today. The perils of femaledom. Dang. Good thing lunch starts early today, at least get out of this boredroom for a couple of hours... a fag or 2 would be sweet right now.

I am a mental masochist. When I am feeling blue I'll listen to Damien Rice, or any similarly melancholic, depressing music to rub it in somemore, till I'm inches from jumping off the building. In any situation, I would think of the worst things that could or would happen. None of those optimistic b.s. for me. If you ask me for advice, I've give you realistic, if not morbid, crappy truth. I suck at being optimistic. My head is filled with random thoughts popping in and out every few seconds or so, as you can clearly see from the non sequence of each paragraphs...But right now, all thoughts seem to have deluded me. Feels kind of blank beneath the cranium at the moment... see if a little bleak reckin beat does me good... :D it did me good!

Oooweee lunch... wonder where is The Step taking us for lunch today. This sweetie just got me a really cute toothbrush holder...dunno what she's hinting at :p but damn cute stuff, damn cute packaging too.... Thank u Step!

~* yawn....

mmmhhh.... just woke up from a 20 minutes nap. Not a bad one but the sleepiness is creeping back in again. An extremely sleepy and lethargic day tis been so far. Felt like I was about to kaput from trying to stay awake, putting all of one's energy to not sleep is agony, no thanks to the cloudy rainy weather outside. Bad weather, bad bad, bad weather. Give us some hot scorchy sun already. The rainy weather day in and day out is really getting to us now. Been really looking forward to a nice evening after work jog on the lil hill nearby. Dang the rain. I remember asking some friends in/from Europe how do they survive the cold, damp weather there, when our measly rain (in comparison, of course) is really getting on my last nerves. Salute to these folks.

Man… I so want food right now, to keep the sleep away but lunch has been spent for that 20 mins nap and… hmmm…can’t recall what I did before napping. Double dang, sleep worm’s gone to my brains.

Hmm… The Corrs are doing a pretty horrendous cover of REM’s Everybody Hurts. Yuck. Let’s do Damien Rice…much better.

Just got off the phone with Precious. I m calling her that because she’s the sweetest girl you’ll ever meet. She getting me Burger King, but not before asking THE question “Aren’t you on a diet???” bah! Diet schmiEt! Hehe…I’ll suffer the fats tomorrow.

Whilst waiting, let me contemplate today’s after work plans…Choice no. 1. Follow roommate to get tickets back home this weekend. - Taking the train n long walks…bleah. Choice no. 2. Get food, go home, eat food, crash in front of telly – hmm… well folks looks like we have a dang clear winner ‘ere! Bing bing! Wonder what’s on telly tonight. I know this sounds like the confession of a couch potato but I haven’t had enough sleep since the weekends…and tomorrow’s Friday. Bloody futsal training. And knowing me, I probably would NOT have the will power to say no to Friday night party invites. And guess what the next day is New Year’s Eve. Great if I have the discipline to stick to my plans of chilling at parents’ but, again knowing me…ah well…I call it Spontaneity! :D

Ooh, just realized that tis the second consecutive blog of the week, and I’ve manage to fill a page with my incessant yaks so far…aah… I amaze myself sometimes :D … tis my blog and I’ll brag if I want to, brag if I want to…braaaag if I want to, you would brag too if u have your own blog….. :p

~*long HiYaTooos.....

Only the 3rd mesg since I started this lil site. Guess I am not good in putting my thoughts down….moving on....
I do read others' blogs once in a while, and these people who actively updates their blogs never ceases to amaze me. Where do you guys find so much stuff to write about? Me, unless I am comfy with u, I m like a mouse...wallflower or whatchamacallit...I am the type who would rather blend in t the wall at social events, u know. However, that said, u probably won't notice this Real me, if you ever saw me though. Everyone around me thinks I m this girl, with lotsa things to say, bubbly, vivacious... bla bla... How wrong are the first impressions people form on me. I even have this comment saying that i must be the most naive n innocent thing among my frens...little does he know... so very little does he know.

Anyways.... it’s end of the year again, what has the year brought me? What have I achieved? What have I learnt? Let's see...Had a major heartbreak, and a couple of minor ones. Lost my phone and all my connections to him...I knew I had to move on already but I can never bring myself to delete those 4 little words that he asked me years ago. Nature's way of telling me to get over it already I guess. Rediscovering friendships, family and shifting of the social scene online (not exactly fulfilling, and definitely overrated). Work wise things are fine and rather dandy, but my love life was just too insignificant to take into account for this year. Overall, I would say...tis' been very forgettable year. Next year would be a better year at work (hopefully) and definitely a much exciting one for travels thanks to Air Asia for the 2 vacations we’ve booked at the spur of the moment :D one of which with such ridiculous schedule that we may have to do a Terminal act on the last night of our 2^nd vacation. Ooh, also, god willing, some beach frolicking for my birthday in Perhentian courtesy of RedFm … And yes, dating will still suck and probably close to nonexistent, unless I am willing to wait for a little someone in the NYC…just a thought. However, thanks to my bestmate/roomie, I don’t really feel the need to have a boyfriend or be in any relationships, u know. Now if only Mr Daddy can deal with this little fact, and stop asking me to get a boyfriend. I told him the other day I would jump into the lil drain outside the house if he asks me to get a boyfriend, one more time! He said jump. Damn.

Waiting to go home, karaoke tonight… no not at home, at some dark, cold… karaoke joint in Bangsar. …freakin toothache hurting real badly…