~*la bellissimo...

So, this is my second post within an hour. Making up for time lost? Maybe. Clearing my head while spilling my bottled up emotions while the music's blasting all my thoughts clean from my brains - ala adversion theraphy? Most definately.

I've said it before and I'll say it again, and again, and again. The best, the most faithful, the most trustworthy thing in the world is Music. Whatever crap I am feeling, whatever day I've had, whatever situation I'm in, it can all be soothed with good music. It never lets me down, never. Men does, all the time, never fail, but Music - Never.

So, I think i've officially joined the Weirdo Online Anonymous club - with my irreverent ramblings. Good. The thing is, I am expected to be all popular, eloquent, funny, a good conversationalist and all that, in my daily life, but inside of me, I know I am far from that. I am moody. I have horrible mood swings. I can be the happiest looking person one minute and the most downcast the next. Here, only on this blessed lil site, I can be as weird, as whacked as I choose to be. This won't get me any friends, I am sure. Couldn't care less actually.

Anyways, I am turning a year older real soon. Don't know if that has a hand in the mood I am in right now. Sigh... a year older. The questions, when am i getting hitched, has become more rampant by the day. Really don't know what's this obssession people has with getting everyone hitched. Yea, I know you guys are happily hitched and all. Good for you. Don't get me wrong, I am not againts getting hitched or anything. I just haven't met someone i Know that i want to spend my life with. Yea, lotsa comments came to me saying I shouldnt be so picky. I am like, we're talking about someone who's going to stick their lil ..ok huge, thingy into me for the rest of my mortal life, and I shouldn't be picky about that??? Wow, thanks for caring so much about me. I do want to get hitched, I do feel like I am ready to settle down. And yes, age is catching up. But what can I do? Be more "forceful" and active in my search?? Yea right. I would rather bust my ass working than that. It IS more rewarding, you know. Ok, I am not really sure where this piece is going anymore...the music must be working. Depression level must have dipped.
Anyways, since I am on that topic, let me just say that eventhough I am not sure what I really want or look for in a guy. I definately know what I don't want. People often say there's no such thing as The one. But I think I would be able to tell when i meet him... if I meet him.

~*Go for goal Italia!!!! ...i'll holler...